Lets Get Real

Sometimes it is downright difficult to write a blog post.

I don't really know how to put in to words what we are feeling or how things are going.

I don't know how to tell people over and over again that I have no idea what is happening.

 

Don't get me wrong, I really appreciate everyone who asks how our process is going.

I love that you all care so much about our family and I never want to you feel like you are bothering me by asking!

 

I am just so ready to be able to say, "We are ready to go get our children!"

The reality of it is, we are still so far away from getting on a plane and flying to Congo.

Every day that our children do not have a mommy and daddy breaks my heart.

Every time I think of the discomforts they experience without their mommy and daddy there to comfort them, I feel like my knees are going to fall out from under me.

I feel so tired of being so helpless to care for and protect my babies.

I am so tired of watching them grow up in pictures and not knowing their little personalities.

No child should have to grow up without a daddy to tickle them and a mommy to document every moment of their lives through pictures and videos.

Mine are...

Trying to explain how that feels in nearly impossible.

 

The way I feel and reality are two totally different things.

Reality is, God has my kids right where he wants them.

Reality is, God is filling in being our kids mommy and daddy while we can not be there.

Reality is, I can not protect my children...only God can.

Reality is, I am not helpless.  I have God fighting every single one of my battles for me.

 

This is so hard...but we are doing so good and we are so blessed!

Please keep us in your prayers.

 

We have not yet gotten an update about our court process. 

We were supposed to have judgement by now but have not heard anything about it.

We are praying we get some good news soon.

 

We need to come up with $6,000 by mid-July.

This money will pay the rest of our agency fees.

Please continue to pray for God's provision.

 

Boaz's feet...he is all boy, look how dirty!

This is about as long as they let Isryelle's hair get.  It is so cute!