Doing Irelyn's hair while I wait on God's timing.

This week has been a little rough for me.  After FedEx lost our last document for the dossier, I nearly fell apart.  I am just so ready to be on to the next step to get our kids.  I cried....and then I cried some more.  I did not cry because of the lost document.  I cried because I have not really cried good and hard since we started this process.  There is not a way for adoptive parents to prepare themselves for what it feels like to have children living thousands of miles away from you.  To feel so close yet so far and to try to get closer only to hit a paperwork road block.  It is tough and it is life changing.

Every time this specific document would come back to saying it needed to be changed, I would change it and stress out about getting it back to the mail.  I completely overreacted almost every time we had to send it back to the Secretary of State.  I would call Gavin away from work to get it notarized, put all of my plans on the back burner, and get really short with my family.  I was expecting to get the document back Monday or Tuesday.  When it did not arrive today, I called the Secretary of State who told me that it will be mailed tomorrow.  She also told me that the last one that we think we lost was sent back to them.  They then forwarded it USPS!  After all of my freaking out, how much do you wanna bet that both of those documents will come back on Friday!

Last night I gave this issue to God once again.  I decided that I did not care when they came back because it is all part of God's plan and I have no clue what he has in store for us next.  He wanted me to wait until this Friday to send in our dossier.  Even though things did not go how I thought I wanted them to go, I am so amazed by how he orchestrated all of these events centered around this one document to make sure we could not submit our dossier.  Is our God almighty or what!

So I learned my lesson and I am really at peace.  He has something better in mind for us than I could ever think up in my head.  Irelyn's hair has been my concentration while I wait.  I have been trying different styles although for the most part, her hair is too fine and short to work with.  I did accomplish cornrow style french braids.  I would have tried corn rows but a fidgety one year old is probably not the best to learn on.  I am going to try cornrows next as I heard that they will stay better.  The braids slipped out of her hair in about ten minutes!  It was cute while it lasted!