God's timing...for real this time!

One of our elders spoke at church this lasts Sunday.  He spoke on John 11.  There were two portions of his teaching that really stuck out to me.

I have been trusting in God throughout this whole process.  How can I not?  I have waited on his timing(I have not really had a choice).  I have had the opportunity to see how big God really is.  I have been able to witness his provision over and over again and I have watched him orchestrate events in His perfect timing.

I started thinking to myself this weekend if I am really joyfully anticipating God's timing or if I am just waiting for it because that my only option.  I have gotten to the point where when something goes wrong I do not get super upset,  I just think o that sucks...Ill just keep waiting on God's timing.  Well I am making a decision to joyfully wait.  I want to come to a hiccup in the road and say "God is moving!"

I find myself praying for a referral before a certain time or praying that we hear about our dossier soon.  Its almost like I am giving God suggestions!  How silly of me!  God's plan is so much better than mine.  I have no idea what I REALLY want or what I REALLY need.  Only God knows whats best for me and who am I to try and suggest what I think is the best.

The other part that stuck out to me is how Jesus wept when his brother in Christ died.  He loves Mary and Martha so much that their pain makes him weep.  He knows the pain that adoptive parents go through as they wait. He has felt the same pain as he waits for us to call Him our Father.  It hurts him more than it hurts  me to have His children be fatherless in Ethiopia.  We are waiting with Him....because that is His mighty plan.

I will not be asking God to give us our referral a moment early.  I want those kids in His timing...not in mine.  I have this beautiful life that I will be joyful in while I wait.  I will still have days when I will feel like the waiting is unbearable.  But there is a plan.  Time and time again I read the blogs of mothers who are past the waiting stage and on to parenting their children.  They will all agree that it was silly to every want a different plan than the one God made for them...because God's plan is perfect.

UPDATE:  There isn't really any news yet.  We are in our fourth week of waiting to hear that the dossier has been sent to Ethiopia.  We were told it would take about 3 weeks but sometimes takes 4.  I will be contacting our family coordinator at the end of this week to make sure everything is still going smoothly.