Are you tired of this emotional roller coaster yet?
I am not going to lie, we feel like we are ready for the roller coaster to end.
You know that moment when you finally realize that is is over....
The moment when the continuous loops and sudden drops finally stop....
You no longer feel like you are going to throw up your lunch....
You can breath.
Well, the Lord has us on a WILD roller coaster and it does not appear to be coming to a complete stop anything soon!
We got more news from the D.R.C. and have finally come to terms with the fact that we will most likely not be getting our kids home anytime soon.
There is a good chance it will be a year plus some before they are sleeping in their own beds.
We are heart broken for them.
We are heart broken for us.
We know that the Lord has an amazing plan for their futures and we trust Him to care for them while we wait.
So here we are sitting around, praying, waiting, hoping, when out of the blue Gavin says, "I think we need to look into domestic adoption....just while we wait."
My initial reaction was that it seems logical to bring another child into our family while we wait but my heart was still feeling sad and confused.
I figured it wouldn't hurt to look into it so I spent the day researching our options.
By the end of the day I came to the conclusion that there was absolutely no way we could pay for a domestic adoption. These adoptions happen fast....like under 6 months fast sometimes.
We have been adopting for two years and are so broke!
I prayed that Gavin would have clarity on the situation.
I needed him to KNOW without a doubt that this is what God was calling us to do.
I felt so confused by what made sense and what my heart wanted.
When he got home...he knew.
He would not even let me argue all the what-ifs with him.
He had been seeking wisdom and the Lord answered and Gavin told me there was no going back.
We had to go get our child who is here...in the U.S.
So long story short, we are not adopting two...but three children.
Two from Africa and one from the United States.
I am still grieving the change a little bit...I want Isryelle and Boaz home so bad it hurts.
I am also beginning to let myself get excited about what the Lord could have for us in the future that we never expected.
The Lord has provided the money to get started in amazing ways.
He has opened doors for us in the same way he opened doors for us when we started our first adoption process.
This adoption will cost around $25,000.
I am not going to lie, in my head this seems impossible.
We have fund raised the heck out of every single person we know for the last two year.
We have already applied for many of the grants that are out there.
I feel like a crazy person for even starting this process...but I have faith that the Lord will take care of it. His track record in our lives is perfect.
Where he guides, He provides!
How you can help?
1. Pray! I put this as #1 because I really do believe it is the best thing you can do for us!
2. I need some fundraising ideas or financing options. I am really out of ideas so if anyone has any please share in the comment section below!
3. If you feel led, you can help bring our baby home on a financial level. Just follow the link below.
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