God is God

I took a little break from updating our blog while we got some stuff figured out.

I am sorry for those of you who were left sitting on the edge of your seats after my last blog post.

We have had a long and hard few weeks and were just waiting until we had some answers to share with everyone.

 

With heavy hearts, we have had to say goodbye to little Penelope.

"K" disappeared about two weeks ago from her apartment and has not been heard from since.

There was a very dramatic phone call in which the birth father said he wanted the baby, while "K" screamed in the back ground that she didn't want her.

The next day, they were gone.

The agency, knowing "K" better than we do, feels like she was likely made to leave against her will.

The father has a history of abusive controlling behavior.

 

So here we are, seven months after being matched with our sweet Penelope, being told that it is time to move on.

We are heart broken and grieving over the loss of our sweet baby girl.

We are sad for "K" who was doing so so well before the birth father came back into her life.

We do not understand the reasoning behind any of this.

But we know that God is always good.

God gives and he takes away.

 

We will be praying for little Penelope's salvation for the rest of our lives.

That right there makes this whole journey worth it.

We have been called to be obedient and we will be obedient whether what God is doing makes sense or not.

The Lord has moved in our lives and hearts during the last few weeks and he has made himself more real to us than ever before.

 

When we look at her cradle with her hand made quilt perfectly draped over the side and we cry,

God cries too.

When we are angered by the fact that this little girl will have to suffer CPS,

God is angry too.

He is with us through this and He loves Penelope more than we ever could!

 

Despite how difficult this loss is, we have peace and we have joy.

The Lord loves us and has a plan for us.

We are not giving up as we still feel called to this adoption.

We are going to throw our hands up and leave room for God to be God.

 

Romans 8:28

And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.