Why we REALLY left our agency - part 3

We prayed for days.  We talked to elders and pastors at our church.  We were covered in prayer by people at our church.  Then one night I talked to a person on the phone who I had never met. 

She had an awful experience with our previous agency and was still shocked by how bad it has gotten since she adopted her child.  She asked me this question,

"If money was not a factor, would you stay with the agency you are with or would you leave?"

 

That is a great question!

My answer....we would leave.

This conversation really helped open my eyes to what is important.

God can take care of the money!  He will provide for this adoption.

 

Gavin and I were both feeling that to stay we would be supporting a very unethical agency. 

We felt God telling us clearly that we should leave the agency.

We were heart broken over the loss of funds and the fact that those kids are victims and we can't help them.  We came to love Ethiopia and were sad that this corruption was taking place.

We knew that adopting orphans through a system that we knew was not ethical was NOT bringing justice to the orphan.  We still wanted a baby.  We wanted to stay in birth order and Irelyn was only 18 months old.

We started praying for what God wanted for us.

Yes we want children but we also want to help solve the problem of fatherless children...we did not want to be part of the problem.

 

I had so many fears when we first decided to leave.  What will people think?  Will people be upset that we lost so much money...a lot of which was donated? Where will we go from here?  Will we be able to get any money back from our agency?

 

Then God gave me peace.  We were doing the RIGHT thing.  God will bless that.

The next day, God rained down his blessing.